Fathers are the best motivator

Fathers are the best motivator. Once i was was complaining how we dont have a car, a good enough home. And blamed my father for it. He just laughed it off .it was a long time ago. After some time i found a diary of my father. He lived with his family in the villageWhen my grandfather died my father was 16. He had two younger brother and a younger sister. My grandfather died with a huge debt. My grandmother sold some our trees. And got some money.she didnt had any qualification to work. So my father had to quit his studies and came to the city with a little money for a few days. Then he worked at a roadside tea stall like a waiter. He got like 50 cent each day and food. He used to sleep on the roades and send those money so that his family could buy something. After sometime he found a part time job of delivering water on a tricycle and got like 2 dollars a day. He still didnt had shelter. He sent all his money to his family so that his little brothers could study. He survived like this till 18. And 18 he got a chance to join the army. And he was happy because he didnt had to think about his food and shelter and his salary was enough to provide quality education for his brpthers and sisters. He continued this and didnt marry until both of his brothers got job and started earning . They have much respect as they have good job. And i always thought among three brothers why our family is so poor. But now i know. They also respect my father. I dont know why i am saying this here. But my father never got promotion in army and got higher rank because he is uneducated. Still he made sure that i get the best education of my country. I was admitted in the finest school and college. Now I have passed the preliminary test to be an army officer. And i hope that i can make my father proud. But i know no matter what happens he always will be happy about me. Salute to all fathers

i miss you, ah ma

i always think there are much time left
i busy with my own stuff
keep on resting on my own once there is free time
keep slack when there are nothing to do or plenty of time to complete of my stuff
more time to hangout or argue with my significant other
and didn't know the clock is ticking
it was too fast too sudden
you left
in a sudden
watching on you lying on the hospital bed
knowing that you left in a silence
it looks no different like you sleep already, but that's forever
without any chance to speak with you again
could be the biggest regret i have in my life so far
i never experience someone so important passed away in my life
at least not expected that is you
who are always so strong in my mind

i miss you ah ma
the last moment i had with you in the restaurant
the memories that you told
is always a pain in my heart
and yet it is something to make you stay always in my heart and my mind
so it's something i will hold for the rest of my life
i miss you, i miss the time i stay in your house
new year is coming, but you are no longer here
and you teach me how important is the time
never again take it for granted
wish i can have more time with you
hope you are living happily somewhere
hope we can still meet again